Fears and Anticipation

I have a number of fears. It seems like every day I find myself picturing some sort of violent death or harm happening to me, and it happens to me at the randomest times. Or maybe I’ll be betrayed by someone I care about and never be able to trust people again. I don’t know why it happens, and to be honest, I’m not curious; not enough to go to a therapist. I’ve recently realized something: these scenarios, even if they do eventually happen to me, aren’t something I should worry about before they happen. Who knows, maybe I’ll lose an arm, or both of my legs, and be crippled for the rest of my life? No point in worrying about it now.

That sentence right there was an important turning point in my life. Here’s the quote that helped me realize that:

My mind, as an instrument of reason, doesn’t invent its own trouble, doesn’t frighten or seduce itself. If there is something else that can frighten or harm me, then let it be so, but under no circumstance will the assumptions and imaginings of my own mind lead me to feel fear or pain.” - Marcus Aurelius